You didn't want to stick around, so I learned from you

This past week has been crazy with moving into my new place and working a ton this week. With all this moving and literally moving away from the past, I feel as if its help me realize some things.

One of the things I've learned is that I can be extremely self sufficient. I used to rely on Will a lot, whether it be to carry something heavy or to drive us somewhere because I hated driving. Besides some help from friends and family, I did most of my moving myself. I moved my own, very heavy tv, that I would have never moved myself at the beginning of the summer.

I've also become ok with being alone. I can enjoy time to myself with a book or movie.

I've also realized that I'm ok with not being with him. If he were to come back and decide that he made a huge mistake and knew that he was really in love with me, then I'm ok with giving him a second chance, but if he is unsure or wants to kind of “half-ass” it, that's not what I want, so I don't want him. I deserve someone that is crazy about me every day, not for just the “honeymoon” period. I love being in a relationship and I love having a companion through life, but I've decided that I'm ok with traveling alone for a while, to wait for something that is right and what I truly want, whether it be Will or someone else.

Easy to say now. Talk to me in 2 weeks when I have to deal with this face to face. But I'm strong and have to trust myself that I will make the right choice.

"I won't regret it because you can grow flowers from where dirt used to be"
-Kate Nash

More Lessons

I'm on a life lesson's streak.

1. As much as they deny it, 20-something year old guys can sometimes have more emotional problems then girls do. I swear they have man periods. I'm trying to learn that when they go on their mangents (tangents about their man problems) its prob easier to just ignore them, than try and justify your side of the story. Hmph, frustration.

2. 3 hours of sleep will probably not equal a very good day

3. Mom's home cooking fixes everything

4. Speaking of 3 hours of sleep, I'm so tired that if I didn't proofread this post like 10 times, it would prob be incoherent.

5. In the car ride home today, I came up with a bunch of lessons and I'm so tired that I've forgotten them all =(


Hopefully more life lessons to come this week...

Random Monday Lessons

1. I read every Gossip Girl book and was extremely addicted, but I have never been interest in the TV show. I started watching an episode while getting ready to go out (I'm low maintenance, so I'm ready and prob not going to leave for another hour, so blogging it is.) It is pretty much the Sex in the City for teeny boppers. I prefer Sex in the City to be honest.

2. I could never live in a single apartment. All my roommates went away for the weekend, and because I worked a lot, I didn't go out a ton. But when I'm home I find myself bored out of my mind. No human interaction = no fun for me!

3. If you wake up, and wonder why its Tuesday morning and they aren't mowing the lawn, its because its still Monday and you just feel asleep watching America's Next Top Model reruns, and woke up 3 hours later.

4. If you say your computer is perfect and you never have problems with it, it will find something to break. Currently my "O" key is not happy and sometimes refuses to work.

5. You know you've been shopping too much lately when you look at your money for the rest of the week and you have to decide whether you want food money or drinking money. I chose the latter. (Don't worry Mom, I have plenty of groceries at my place. Packing lunches for work this week it is). After I buy shoes at the discount show store for Recruitment that I will still wear after, I'm putting myself on a strict no shopping budget. Besides, while moving, I'm realizing pretty much the only thing I own is a shit load of clothes. I'll be honest though, I do wear about 90% of them, unlike those people who have a closet full of clothes they NEVER wear.

6. For the 3rd year in a row, I have to clean up after a messy roommate before moving out because she didn't. I will spend one of my days off this week scrubbing the who knows what off her side of the bathroom sink. Barf much?

My Life According to Billy Joel

Found this on FB. Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think!

Pick your Artist:
Billy Joel

Are you a male or female:
Uptown Girl

Describe yourself:
She's Got a Way

How do you feel:
Shameless

Describe where you currently live:
Movin' Out

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
New York State of Mind

Your favorite form of transportation:
The Downeaster "Alexa"

Your best friend is:
Captain Jack

You and your best friends are:
I've Loved These Days

Describe the weather:
Falling of the Rain

Favorite time of day:
The Night is Still Young

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
That's Not Her Style

What is life to you:
Its Still Rock and Roll to Me

Describe your ex boyfriend/girlfriend:
When in Rome

Describe your current boy/girl situation:
These Times They Are a-Changin'

Describe your job:
Tell Her About It

Your fear:
A Matter of Trust

What is the best advice you have to give:
Everybody Has a Dream

Thought for the Day:
Only the Good Die Young

How I would like to die:
Running on Ice

My soul's present condition:
And So It Goes

My motto:
You're Only Human

"I'd rather laugh with the sinners, then cry with the saints
Sinners are much more fun"

Dance your ass off!

The other night, for the first time, I saw an episode of the show "Dance Your Ass Off" and I was thoroughly disappointed. Being a dancer myself, I am always a fan of the dance shows and willing to give all of them a shot, but this one is just not a hit.

The point of this show is for overweight people to literally dance their fat ass off. I think its a good concept and I'm all for the shows to get people healthy (I knew a contestant on "Biggest Loser" and it changed her life!) but they could have done so much better with this show.

Judges- I'm not sure if ANY of these judges have any dance experience. There is a British guy that I only think he is on the show to be the token British guy. One of the judges is no one I have ever heard of but she insists on putting the word "sexy" in front of whatever number she gives the contestants ("I'm going to give you a sexy 7"), and the other one is the actress who played the nanny in the Lindsay Lohan "Parent Trap" (can you say random?)

Host- Girl from the "Hairspray" movie. She is just way too smiley and monotone

Dancers- Must they always be put in crop tops? and the dances are so easy the 3 years old I used to teach could pick them up

I was excited to see what this show would be like but I think I'm going to have to consider this one a dud

Boutiques.. I need you!

One thing that I feel like my town thoroughly lacks is fun little boutiques. Growing in Vacation Beach Town, USA my entire life there was always a cute boutique with fun accessories to pop into and quickly satisfy a shopping urge. Where I live now, there is just no in between. Its either really tacky stuff, or outrageously priced designer stuff. While in Georgia, we went shopping in downtown Decatur, and we found the cutest little boutique that I wish I could remember the name of it. They had candles, reasonably priced jewelry, handbags and wallets, perfume, fun gag gifts, and even some cute baby gifts. My mom got the cutest little black leather wallet.

And the frosting on the cake, they were playing Jason Mraz's “Details in the Fabric” as I walked in. Heaven.

If only I could find this Heaven here in my town.

"If its a broken part, replace it. If its a broken arm, then brace it.
If its a broken heart, then face it"

Was it a dinosaur?!

I'm finally back home after being on vacation for a week. I'm happy to be back, but I did have a fabulous time visiting family in Georgia. We did a lot of fun things, giving me plenty to blog about for the next few days.

A lesson I learned from this weekend. 6 and 4 year-olds say hilarious things.

6 year old: Mini genius. He read me multiple books, taught me how to finger knit (slightly against my own will, but I went along with it), colored Winnie the Pooh pictures almost perfectly in the lines, and also gave me great dating advice...

6: Are you married?
Me: No
6: Why not?
Me: Well, I would need a boyfriend first
6: Do you have any guy friends?
Me: Yes
6: Well, maybe one of them can be your boyfriend

*He also successfully changed my uncle's facebook status to "bunny"

4 year old: cutest little ham I've ever seen. He made me laugh the entire weekend.

[At Stone Mountain}
4: This is the first time I've ever been here
Aunt K: You've been here before
4: Well, this is the first time I've been impressed!

[While out to dinner, trying to figure out what kinda of animal the 6 year old saw while on a road trip. We were all guessing a cow, goat or horse]
4 interjects: Was it a dinosaur?!

[Skipping away from the dinner table]
4: Excuse me, I'm flatulent!

*He also insists on pointing to everything with his middle finger

I got to spend my weekend with the two cutest boys I know, and I couldn't have asked for a better weekend.

and Why I love my father

So, I gave my reasons for loving my mother, but now its time to give you the 7 reasons why I love my father

• We are the same person. We have the same sense of humor, interests, fears, favorite foods, and laid back attitude
• He always motivates me to stand up for myself and not take crap from anyone, especially guys
• He'll watch any movie, good or bad. And even if its bad, he'll sit through the whole thing.
• He's really good at what he does, no matter what it may be. He's amazing at his job. He can pick up a guitar after 20+ years and still play. He can fix any computer problem, and most of the time, is able to do it explaining to me through the phone.
• I've learned a lot from him. I give him credit for my knowledge of computers, music, and sports
• I danced for 12 years, and as far as I can remember, he never missed 1 of those 12 dance recitals, regardless of how painfully long they may be. Enough said lol
• He is an amazing husband to my mom. He has been by her side through a LOT, and there are probably a million men out there that wouldn't have been there, but he has. Whether it be working 70 hours a week to make up for my mom not being able to work, or stepping in to do the extra stuff that some days she just can't do. He has probably given me unrealistic expectations of what a guy will be, but that's ok, because I don't want to give up looking for the man that will be just like him.

I'll always be Daddy's Little Girl

Now, he's wrapped around her finger. She's the center of his whole world and his heart belongs to that sweet, little, beautiful, wonderful, perfect, All-American girl."
-Carrie Underwood

Why I love my mother

Little Miss Sunshine State, my mom, posted in her blog 7 things she loves about her kids and it has inspired me to write 7 things I love about my mother!

• I can call her crying at any time of the night, completely down on myself, and I can hang up the phone and feel a million times better about myself.
• She has always felt bad for being so sick while I was growing up, but through it all, I believe that she has never, ever, ever failed me once as a mother.
• She tries so hard and will spend 10 minutes trying to type a text message, just to put a smile on my face
• She puts up with my horrible taste in television shows , and always makes sure to make an amazing homemade dinner whenever I come home
• She found her Prince Charming, and with a lot of hard work from the both of them, has always set an amazing example of what a marriage should be
  
• She is an extremely creative person, and I am slightly jealous of her scrapbook, jewelry making, notecard creating skills
  
• She is the strongest person I know, and I wish I could be half the woman she is

Why I love my daddy is soon to come :)

"She's blessed with grace and is smooth as a line. And when I shade, she helps me shine. And she comes to me when there's nothing I believe and holds me so high. Yes I am free."
-Beth Hart

Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants.. well kinda

If you've seen "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" you know that its about a group of friends all miraculously fit into the same pair of jeans, even though they have completely different body types and are clearly, different sizes. Well, I had a Traveling Pants-ish experience this weekend.

I work at American Eagle, and besides getting people to sign their life away to the AE Credit Card, I'd say I'm pretty good at my job. I'm 1 out of 9 employees to be selected as a back to school Denim Expert, something that I'm very excited about. I can sell jeans with my eyes closed and my hands tied behind my back. I know what type of jeans are best for the customer's body type and shape. If a customer comes in looking for jeans, I am able to almost guarantee that they will be walking out the door with a pair of jeans, if not multiple pairs.

Each season, AE updates their different styles, usually changing the names and make slight changes to their fits. Since I can remember, I have only been able to fit into one, maybe two styles of AE jeans, just because my thighs and waist have a battle over what size jeans they want me to wear, and my thighs usually win. Luckily, AE makes a style of jeans that give a little bit more room in the thighs, so I don't have to compromise my waist size.

This season, AE has done something new, where they have a fit model for each size, not just one for a size 6 and build off of that. At my Denim Expert meeting, we had the opportunity to try on both men's and women's jeans. I miraculously fit into Super Skinny Jeans, Skinny Jeans, a Slim Bootcut jean, AND a men's bootcut jean, and ALL of them looked fabulous.

If you are in needs of jeans this season, I think AE maybe your most stress free jean experience out there!

Vitamin String Quartet

I was watching my favorite show, So You Think You Can Dance, one day and heard a new song I liked, so I immediately opened my iTunes to search for the song. In the process I found a version of the song by a group called the Vitamin String Quartet. They take popular songs and replay simple with string instruments, such as violins and violas. I found some of my favorite songs, such as "Don't Stop Believing" by Journey, and "Boston" by Augustana. Many of their albums are tributes to specific bands, such as the Beatles, Paramore, Coldplay, and R.E.M. I personally think this would be amazing study music because its familiar songs but without the distraction of lyrics.

"I dare you to move. I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor"
-Switchfoot

Since I'm not your everything, how about I'll be nothing to you...

Its been about 2 months.

He was what I always looked for in a guy. He was my best friend. My support system. We laughed and we cried together. We were there for each other, even if no one else was. We spent almost every holiday together, and his family became like a second family to me. He always thought we would be together. That when he thought about the future, he say me in it. He was the person to tell me everyday how he loved me and how important I was to him

Until the day, when he woke up, and wasn't sure if he was still in love with me. He just needed a break from everything to figure his life out. This was the day that my life got turned upside. This was the day that I had to learn to live my life by myself because for the past two years, I hadn't done much of anything by myself. I had to learn to fall asleep alone, to brush my teeth alone, to in general... be alone.

Its been a very complicated 2 months, and a very emotional rollercoaster. He leaves for Europe tomorrow, and we said our last goodbyes, possible forever. As of tonight he is sure that he does not want to be with me ever again, and I know that I can't be friends with him, at least not for awhile. A long while. This is probably the worst pain I have ever felt, but knowing the truth is for the best.

Its heartbreaking to say goodbye to your best friend, probably forever and this is will be harder than I know or can expect.

Life is beautiful, but its complicated...

Its summer. Its the first time in about 4 years that I've had more than a few weeks off of school, and I find myself constantly searching for something to do. I've been spending a lot of time with friends, but I've also spent way too much time watching tv, shopping, and facebooking. I've decided I need a hobby, so this seemed like a pretty good one. I had a blog a while ago, but I can't even remember my log in and I only posted in it twice, so I'm starting fresh, like many other things in my life. I am recently single (which is a whole blog post in itself- for another day) and more than anything, I have days that I need to get whatever's going on in my head out of it.

But I figured I'd explain a little about myself, and the reason behind my blog name.

• I'm addicted to song lyrics and music. I plan to have every post title be a lyric from a song, whether it be something that relates to my mood, or just whatever song I have stuck in my head.
• In my blog name the word "Live" is in quotations, because that's the word I have tattooed on my back as a daily reminder that life is shortand to live for today. I got it my freshman year of college (with my parents approval) after going through a series of events that pushed me and tested me more than I ever thought I would experience at that age. I've always been an optimistic person, but i often need the daily reminder, so I love looking in the mirror and having that reminder there for the rest of my life.
• My mind often gets ahead of my hands while typing so I leave out words or type the completely wrong words, often. Deal. You can prob figure out what I'm trying to say.
  

There are many more details to life that I'll get into at a later time :)

"Life is beautiful. But it's complicated. We barely make it.
We don't need to understand. There are miracles"
-Vega 4